The Path I Walked On

Within 15 minutes,a new year begins..It is such hard to let go 2009 year which contains a lot of memories..Through hardship I been..

Do I need to say more XD??Happy sweet sixteen to her..So lucky she has her birthday so late..Within a month my birthday is coming ¬.¬..Definitely can't wait for it..Not really =/..My birthday on Wednesday which coincidentally the day I born 17 years ago..

I regretted a lot because I felt like missed so many things at school today..

Early in the morning around 2 AM,my sleep was disturbed by piercing pain at my abdomen..I couldn't return back to sleep after I woke up for a long time till 6.30 AM..

Not to mention the pain was not ignorable and it was a lot much severe than my cramps..Plus I threw up twice..I couldn't figure out what I ate wrong..Really I did not want to go through it again..I suffered enough just for 1 night..

It was awesome..At least it way better than last year class party..Many teachers that taught us this year came ^_^..The foods were okay but the memories of gathering that count right??I didn't took many photos since I brought cellphone to take photos instead of digital camera..

Today was also the day I returned back secondary 4 textbooks..

My class will be one of the SPM examination centre..So my classmates and I had to bid early farewell to beloved 402 class,that holds countless memories..

Next Wednesday, one of my classmate said that we will send our textbooks and also the day announce classes for 2010 session..Time flies so fast,is it??

Next week going to be stressful because my Physics teacher told our class that she will be taking over some classes to teach secondary 5 Physics chapter 1 >.<..

On random note,lately it always raining in the afternoon..Usually around 2PM,it always raining..2 days I had to cycle in the rain to go home..

Well I'm bored since the probability I'm going to skip school tomorrow is very likely hah..

End of the Year Scenario:

Secondary 3:Probably bored as hell and wish the school holidays are coming quickly (I wonder how the heck I survived the insufferable amount of bored)
Secondary 4:Totally relive since no more exam burden,torn half between enjoying less or none work to be done,the last moment of relaxing during school term or wish the holidays are coming quickly so that does not need to come to school anymore,the last long holidays to have fun
Secondary 5:Maybe hope the date of SPM examination is long way to go or just really want to get over with the SPM examination because tired of waiting >.>

Not really..I'm dreading to see the outcome of so my wonderful hard work this year =.=ll..This is way too unnerving actually..I'm afraid to faced the harsh truth >.>..

Last week is mentally torturous..I'm expecting that I'm not going to score very well in those subject notably Additional Mathematics D=..Grr,you know what blame my mentality that is time to to be ignorance to all the question asked >.>..Somehow throughout last week,my mental was extremely slow to process the questions on the exam paper..I was like staring for more than a minutes at least before I actually understand what it said..I was short of time because of that T_T..

On the side note,I was left alone last Friday due my family went to my younger brother yearly check up at the IJN..I want to tag along but I have final exam to attend =(..My family went to Kuala Lumpur by train..Ohh I really want to see the scenery along the railway track..Since I left alone,I need to cook food myself..

Well,you know that I'm not fond to cook when someone who older than me especially my mum,in the house because it is annoying because there are high chance my mum will criticize my style of cooking -.-..What happen if the cooking gone wrong >.>??My mum surely give lecture about it...

So I took quite sometime at the kitchen because I never plan to cook variety of stuff at the first place =/..I ended up cooked fish fillet,fries,nuggets,2 pieces of toast with scramble egg and of cause cause boiled carrots..

I more than annoyed with the exam really..I feel like burning my exam papers that I wrote..I don't care about zero mark seriously -.-..Well just let's just forget it because I found a youtube video which I found quite funny and yet adorable..Haha I just love cats >.<..

What Cats Are Really Thinking

However,exam is quite good because no homework to do just a lot of reading and a little bit of writing just in case =P..

It was very nice to sit and eat with my family other than at my home..My family very rare to bother to eat outside..We spent enormous amount of time eating in the restaurant..Approximately around an hour and a half..We ordered a lot of stuff which were 1 whole chicken with 4 side dishes,2 large plates of pasta,1 baked potato,5 cold drink and 1 hot ones and lastly 5 banana muffins which we took home because we couldn't eat anymore..Well the total amount about RM171..It was more expensive than the last time we ate there..Last time my elder brother joined my family but this he couldn't..I almost full tasting and finishing the foods,I didn't bother to eat dinner at all =X..

After we done,we went shopping..To my delight,my favourite cereal Waffle Crips,are available..However,now my watch is dead =(..Gah,so annoying I keep glancing at my wrist to see the time even I don't wearing any watch >.>..

'Reformat'

What the first thing in your mind??Duh reformat your computer obviously..It is a nightmare who doesn't back up your precious stuff that stored in your computer...I didn't back up at all =(..The reformat was totally unexpected..Gah my bookmarks and saved passwords in my Mozilla Firefox all wiped up..I have to bookmarks and saved password everything from scratch..It took a lot of time especially the collection of Adobe Photoshop tutorials..I have to back up my bookmarks and saved passwords next time D;..My computer need to reformat the main hard drive last Tuesday's morning because of a virus..Grr I didn't download anything this week..My father fault I guess >.>..

I just remember all fonts I downloaded for my graphic designs also gone T_T..This is stupid and annoying..To redownload whole collection of fonts again..

The BM subject period was on the first period,that really gave me little space to prepare..You know I always late for school >.>..I always arrive at school like 1-3 minutes before 7:30 PM..My habit to procrastinate,ended up I totally not prepare for anything even thought the BM subject teacher already give 1 extra day to prepare..I didn't even make my final topic which to talk on..While my classmate was talking in front of the class,I tried my best to prepare..Unfortunately I couldn't think much ideas since my brain can't think properly whenever I'm panic..

However,I really enjoyed one of the my male classmate,his speech was quite hilarious..It so funny that I needed to go to the toilet badly =X..I did not talk bad about his speech although his reasons didn't make much sense..Luckily,he finished his speech after short while..So I didn't need to make a trip to the toilet..It made sense because everyone was not exactly prepare..

Up till today,I'm busy with extra classes that I need to attend which are Monday till Thursday but it keep me occupy which is good..You know its not good to sleep too much in broad light..I have Malay Language Oral to take care..Chemistry note which is ridiculous to do (I just didn't bother to do,notes are least likely I do unless it is Physics,Mathematics or Additional Mathematics) ..English Oral to think off..Physics formulas to be remember..What else??Syllabus of subjects to finish and obviously some revisions to be done..Geez,I'm really need to lock my desktop until my works are done..But it very unlikely since I can't barely alive without internet >.<..

Yesterday,some of my male classmates were fooling around before the Physics extra class -.-..

Oh yeah,I kind of screwed up my sleeping time..I need a lot of time of sleep to be energised..Really 1 week of school holidays can make your sleeping time be upside down..

Finally,my Adobe Photoshop CS4 download already finished..I done installed it in my computer..Now,I just need a huge amount of free time to test it and create something using PS CS4 =)..

I can't believe,it already over..Yeah,time to renew the study spirit yay??

I'm so lazy to type in my blog anymore..I have much better things to do..Not really I just lost my interest to type in my blog..Today I actually absent from school due to fever =P..

Last night,I had a frightening dream..It doesn't make sense much thought..The way I defensed myself from the man seem so illogical..But it worked anyhow..Then I screamed a bit then the helps came out of no where O_O..

Last weekends,my family and I went to Terengganu and Kelantan again for 2nd time this year..It actually unplanned because my father planned going to my paternal grandmother house..Then while in the car somehow my younger siblings kept suggesting going to Terengganu so we went to Terengganu instead..As usual on the Sunday's morning,my family and I played on the beach..The sea water was more crystal clear than usual and shallower..Then my father suggested that we sleep in Kelantan for the night..I ended up absent from school on Monday..

On the side note,on the Friday's evening around 5:30 PM till 6.00 PM there was a very heavy rain and strong wind..I forgot about my ceiling my bedroom could leak when there heavy rain..My books that I put on the middle on my bed got soaked wet..I regretted a lot but there no use..

Biology camp is the best!!It much better than my integration camp while Year 5 in Pangkor Island..Eh,not really apart from my school shoes is stolen,I kind of missed my parents and I'm so alone..

I fell twice while on Pangkor Island..Geez,Pangkor Island seem to hate me a lot >.>..

Last week,I fell from the chair for no reason while conversing with my classmate who sit near me..My classmate who I conversed with ended up laughing for quite sometime because of that -.-..She said she wouldn't forget how I fell from the chair..I think I just slipped from the chair =/..

Not to forget my lovely pair of scissors is taken away from me during school spot check T_T..Stupid prefects think the tip of the scissors is sharp..It is not that sharp..Its not like I'm going to injure someone with that..Now how the heck I'm going to cut my paper >.>??Grr..

On the other hand,last weekend my old computer CPU didn't work so my father ended up bought a brand new CPU this Tuesday..This new CPU it so fast and much better..Perhaps while at the end of year school holidays,I have the chance to play The Sims 3..

Si Sukun,my cat finally gave birth again last Wednesday..She ended up gave birth twice this year because her kittens died the last birth..My mother said,she not very smart taking care of her kittens..

You'll see I haven't submitted my entry for quite sometime..I just quite busy and plus my network adapter couldn't work for whole weekend until I decided to become unacknowledged technician..Well, not really I just cleaned up the dust and plugged in the network adapter back at the motherboard..

I remember that on 16th July,my brother invited 2 of his friends to our house for his birthday..

It was unpredictable event..Now my left foot is injured..I did nothing really,I did not fall at all..It probably a misstep that leaded my foot being sprained..It getting worst after I woke from my evening nap..I'm grateful I'm still able to walk sort of like normal after the incident that happened near school..

Ah another thing,while I was completing my Chemistry exercise book,all sudden my class monitor snatched my book from me..I was real annoyed,I let my frustrated voice..Then all classmates sitting around me looked up..

You know what??I'm highly annoyed when all sudden my History mark down till 55,but actually my mark was 84,my mark was unappreciated T_T..Then my Chemistry mark sudden shoot up till 79 but the truth was I had only 66..With all the mistakes,it still didn't justify my GPA and my total marks of all subjects..I could have better GPA and total marks,perhaps surpassed my classmates who got number 5 in the class..But it didn't happen so yeah =(..However,I'm thankful that I'm not in SPM year just yet..If it ever happen in my SPM year,I'm really going to complain..

On the side note,my close friend also encountered same mistake except only 1,her Chemistry mark all sudden sixty something,but the truth was her Chemistry mark only 54..I guess it pretty much a blessing mistake for her because she got number 1 in my class..

Why I didn't bother said it great because it well less than great unfortunately..At least most of the time I didn't walk like a mindless person because I didn't walk much..This year,I spent RM10.50 on the canteen day like last year..Actually it supposed to be RM13.50 but I didn't pay the movie fee XP..I think this year didn't seem to have eye-catching foods..I bought less food too,first I bought 'cendol ' RM1.50,RM2 for squid and crab balls,then I bought mixed fruit flavoured carbonated water(the green coloured one)with vanilla ice cream on top just like float for RM2 and last 'nasi dagang' for RM2.50 for lunch that I ate at home..I paid RM 2.50 for dead road entrance fee..

I arrived early in the morning just the same time as my close friends did..We ended up sit down in front of 303 class benches because the canteen day still busy to get ready..While waiting time to go passed,my close friends and I chatted and took some pictures..In the middle conversation,an evening session discipline teacher sat down while talking on his cellphone..We staring each other awkwardly because we didn't know what to say in front of the teacher..After he finished talking his cellphone,we had a little conversation with him then he went somewhere..

When it close to 8:30 AM,we went to physics lab to watch Baby and I South Korean film..We went inside but it still a bit early..We sat down and waited..While waiting,I suggested to buy something to eat while watching but it we afraid it taking some time since the movie about close to start,so we didn't buy..After the movie finished,we stood up and exited..I thought we paid after we watched but the guy who supposed to collect our fee only said 'Thanks for watching'..Haha gee thanks for the free movie watch..I still couldn't figure out when my close friends paid the movie fee..

Yesterday,my Biology teacher gave me a secondary 4 Biology reference book for free..I never expected much,she said it for my works that been done for her..Really I thought I never did that much of work..However,I still grateful for receiving it..

Dang it started bad..All because almost whole class came down late to the weekly assembly..Well,we got arrested..But the good thing was at least I didn't to face the sun..

Then the heart wrecking nervous started because anticipated subjects marks..I guess the marks were good so far..I couldn't bear to see the low marks..

Okay,I really abandoned this blog for quite sometime..Well at least 3/4 of middle year school holidays at least..I don't have the mood to type on this blog because there is nothing fascinating event happened..

Last Saturday,I went to my maternal grandparents house..I played badminton with my cousins..My skill is really horrible..I think I spent half of the time playing calming myself from laughing because my cousin haha..

With middle year exam this month was really quite crazy..

I accidentally hit my friend head with bottle plastic..I really don't know know why I did that..

Yesterday I had a scary dream..It about the tsunami hitting over my house..It scary the tsunami was real tall..It feel so real..When I woke up I noticed I was under my pillow and I laid on my chest which was quite suffocating..After that,I sleep again then I dreamed something similar..I think my mind was restless from all that scary dreaming and I couldn't get well enough sleep..

However it started to get better..I went Giant hypermarket and I finally found Post Waffle Crisp cereal after so long..My younger sibling so crazy bought 3 boxes of the cereal..Haha very addicting taste,although it a bit too sweet..Soon after that my father took us to eat grilled fishes for dinner..

Before I forget,last Friday I was drenched because of rain..It suck because my school uniform top is white and when wet it see-through..I shivered while answered Physic paper 2 because the wind of ceiling fan produced..

Yesterday,I supposed to come to school but I don't feel like to >.>..Guess what??My friends decided unexpectedly came to my house..

I realised my cat,Si Sukun missing for a couple of days..In the Friday afternoon she came to eat and her stomach looks flat..Meaning she just gave birth..

Yesterday,one of my classmate told me that I'm quiet person since I hardly talk with her although she sit near me..I talked with her because she asked me because she wanted to know more of me..Out of sudden,she told me she want to be at least a modern farmer when she grows up..Then She asked me what my ambitions..I'm a bit reluctant at first,but I told her anyways that I want to be a tour guide..First thing I heard was "Wow,that so unique and interesting"..Haha really I don't think anyone who good at academics have ambition like me..It is not a professional career..I don't think in general it a high paying job either but I think it quite interesting..But then again I think I better go with much secure paying job..Traveling can be tiring when you getting older ;D..

Besides that,middle year exam schedule is passed up last Tuesday..Guess what??I have to take Geography subject in the exam *gasp*..Ugh that screwed up..It is not like I don't like the subject (Why the heck I take it if I don't like it??) but I hardly learned the subject due my school schedule and I don't know anything about Geography format paper..To add more problem,the Chemistry paper immediately after the Geography paper without any minute to spare between the two papers..Well I guess there must be some solutions for these problems (Trying to be a positive person)..

It was fun after more than a half year never been to Terangganu..My family like so crazy about eating cuttlefish fritters..We ate like 3 times =X..Well when on a late morning at usual stall,I meet a France guy,I'm impressed because he managed to speak Malay languange just within 8 days..I was like 'wow'..

Biology is so not my anticipated subject anymore..Here goes my favourite subject >.>..Yesterday,my additional mathematics teacher disappointed with our class..

I feel bad for laughing at my classmate =X..

Today,my school had fire-emergency practical..The fire officer said that our time is like real bad..Like 7 minutes to empty the building..Last year much better timing like 4 minutes and 1/2..

Not that I complained but person who born in year 1993,like a whole new generation that started off the bad trend..All the teacher said the same things,it really a shame..It real total shock to the teachers who never teach us 1993 before the teachers claimed that 1992 and beyond students are real good and never caused too much problems..Like ditching extra classes..

Today,additional mathematics extra class got canceled due to our attitude..Of cause my class teacher furious and my co-class monitor told us expected to get some ears bleeding nagging tomorrow for who ditched the additional mathematics extra class..

Well anyways last Friday,my Biology practical teacher departed since her practical session was over..She said my class acted real good and quite convincing while lecture graded her and it really helped her grade..However,I don't think it applied to me..I don't act,I just being me like usual haha..

While on Saturday,I went back to visit my maternal grandparents because of my aunt visited off too..

Last Tuesday,first time I used graphic calculator for straight line topic in modern mathematics subject..I was confused at first but I managed to figure how to use it..While English,my teacher asked us to suggest an idea how to help..When it was my turn I took so long time to get an idea -.-..In the end,the boys keep asking me and I became the center of attention for a moment..Hahaah..

Today,there was a religion practical for a topic we learned..I was quite tired since the practical mostly done outdoors and it was quite hot..Nevertheless,it was fun and well it certainly helped me in more understanding the topic..

Last Saturday,I finally bought Biology reference book that needed..

On Sunday,my family and I went to my elder sister's college to pick up her books..While on the way,I was held down by a bicycle competition..I waited like 1 hour to see the racers to pass us..The racers so fast it was like less than 30 seconds..

My father taken my elder sister out to eat lunch at Pizza Hut in Alamanda mall in Putrajaya to celebrate her belated birthday..

Apparently I got a long cut on my left thumb without no reason..

I want to complain that I actually don't like stay at my paternal grandmother's house for like so long..

Now I feeling like everything I'm a bit frustrated,sadness tension ugh..There something I don't know how to let go..

I'm so annoyed when I'm extremely sleepy while in Physics period..You know the subject is getting more adventurous as we further go through..Missing a moment meaning you lose all the excitement along the way unless you can catch up..

Last Physic extra class on Friday evening was quite bored..Nothing special except we learned how to answer Physics paper 3..

Last Saturday,I went to school..10 out of 31 students of my class absent on that day..

My English language oral test was worse than my Malay language oral test..I planned but it still bad,I lose my idea while talking..*Sigh*..Well what to do,I already did the oral test =/..My teacher still gave me good marks because one of my ideas was interesting..

Today I had chemistry extra class..It supposed to be at 3 PM but my teacher made it earlier 2 PM instead..Well I still went home to eat my lunch despite the time..Unfortunately it was started to rain around 2 PM..I couldn't go to the extra class because I need to cycle my bicycle to go to school..When the rain seem to stop,I went to school..It already almost 3 PM at that time..Some people might think it wasn't worth it to go because the extra class ended at a little before 4 PM..

My close friend said I have my confidence expression on face while chemistry extra class..My close friend added my expression like I can get straight A's..Yeah right >.>??

Seriously I never expected to do the oral test alone but the teacher told me that he will give extra marks for that..My teammate is very busy with her debate competition at the moment =/..The part which was bad was explaining synopsis of the short story which I assigned to present to the class..The truth was I just prepared my part but not my teammate part..Although it was not compulsory to explain the synopsis but I felt need to comply explaining the synopsis because obviously very few my classmates read the short story..It ended up horrible since probably my classmate don't understand what I'm explaining,at least I think so =P..Nevertheless,my Malay language teacher said it was good presentation since I explained well my part at least and it was loud and clear..I feel so lucky to be blessed with loud voice,I don't need to raise up my voice when I'm presenting..I just use my normal voice..Hahaha I feel so much relief now..

I wrote my presentation to the very last minute,early in the morning >.>..I'm glad I managed to finish writing within a little bit more than 1 hour..When one of my classmate commented that my writing is beautiful,first I thought was a sarcastic comment but he denied and said it was a sincere comment..I doubt so,since it is quite sloppy??I guess beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..Although it make more sense if he says my writing is large because it is indeed large =P..

Maybe it just me but I never experience serious nervous breakdown now whenever I presenting in front of the class..It was probably because when I took my PMR result I was nervous too much..Now I kind of numb to it..Perhaps sometimes the nervous feeling still appear once awhile..

My younger brother got a new spectacles today..Yesterday,he checked his eyes because he complained he can't see the small writing on the whiteboard..Looks like almost all of my family members need to wear spectacles regularly except my elder brother..

The black out happened last night around 10.30 PM,I was ironing my school uniform..Suddenly the electricity was out..I stopped ironing my school uniform and went upstairs to sleep..Really what else to do other than sleep when it was dark and night??It was so dark since my house was out of candle..I had to use my cellphone's light to see in the dark..Although it quite hot to sleep because there no fan,I just slept..When I awoke around 2 AM,the electricity was back up back..Luckily the black out happened early at night,if not probably electricity only back up the next morning like the last black out..

I was like a bit disappointed when there no holidays for tomorrow but the schools which located in area where there will be election,will be having a day holiday..So unfair..I wish my school includes in the area too T_T..Too add more annoyance this Saturday is a school day..Bleah..

On the side note,while I was walking home and it was slightly raining I stumbled across Mr. Kamarul,my current English teacher..He horned at me because he recognised me obviously..A bit embarrassing really because I was like too deep in my thought..It was very surprising since it is very unlikely to meet any people that I know while on the way home..

I don't suppose to post any entry today because I don't feel like much..When I remembered that I learned Geography for the first time this year..

Erm,I guess it was mediocre..It is not that exciting..Today we learned to draw graph..It suppose to be simple but with so many interruption from the students and the teacher explanation make it so difficult..

100th Entry~..Yay it only took 1 year 2 months and 1 week to reach the 100th entry..

This week a bit havoc??Yesterday I thought I lost my Chemistry reference book because I couldn't find it around my bedroom..I complained to my friend that I lose the book but in the end I found it under my bed..

Today,while on the way back home,suddenly my bike's chain lose up..It was sort of annoying because it was real hot and my house like 1/4 away..I didn't bother to fix up the chain on the spot because I didn't want my school uniform to get dirty..Although,I consider it was alright since the distance close enough to my house and it didn't take much time to walk..

Let's just say this monthly test indicates my weakness and strength subjects so far..Biology and Chemistry have potential to be my strength subjects..While Additional Mathematics and Malay language are actually my weakness subjects..My potential weakness subjects are Physic and History..About Religion and Mathematics,I'm not so sure..English language is actually fine as long I use English regularly..

It is very sad when I know History is my potential weakness subject but last year actually my strength subject..Well objective paper made it easy but it is different this year..

I take Geography as an extra subject just because I love Geography so much..Even the teacher can't make me hate Geography >.>..However,this year I don't take Geography as exam subject,only for study..

Today while PE period,my height and weight been measured..My height currently now is 152 cm while my weight is 38 kg..My height same as my close friend..Thankfully I grew 5 cm and gained 4 kg in weight..I thought I never grew or gained much..Wow,that quite a lot compared last year 147 cm and 34 kg..I want to grow 15 cm more and gain 10 kg more hopefully ^^..

Other than that,it is obviously about monthly test marks..Modern mathematics mark is quite shocking..I never expect to get it quite good..I thought I screwed the subjective part..My addition mathematics mark is all right but it is slightly better than I thought..Not that I satisfy with it but it proves that I can get marks,if I put on practice more and stop being so careless..However,history mark was quite expected..Yay for being not remembering??

Before I forget that my close friend (Maysarah,who else??) mentioned to me that yesterday she finally received her cellphone,the main gift for getting 8 A's in PMR..Her new cellphone same model and colour as my current cellphone,red XpressMusic 5220..

I remembered well when she told me that I have the same model of cellphone as she planned to buy..Actually she planned to buy XpressMusic 5310 but she choose XpressMusic 5220 instead since XpressMusic 5310 quite expensive compared to 5220..She complained to me it was unfair that I got my cellphone way before her even thought I didn't get 8 A's =P..She blamed at her brother because he using too much her parents money..

Guess what??Akmal changed his mind..Well I consider it a good decision,who is stupid enough to pass up the golden opportunity that comes once in a life time??Oh well,another boy departed,another one arrived..Like a tradition,if a ex-classmates comes back will be label as a new student althought not excactly a new student..As expected Firdaus came back to our school yeah..

So today like quite non-productive day,I hardly study at a part from Chemistry and Physics(You can never exclude the subject)..As usual I got a few subject marks from the monthly test and well the marks are not impressive at all..That what I got from not taken the test seriously..Who actually care about the monthly test anyways??However I think the upcoming other subjects marks sure will be horrible considering I'm screwed some subject papers..

I haven't do single thing unfortunately..

Guess what??Akmal refused the SBP invitation..I'm not sure it's confirmed or not since I heard the news from my close friend,he probably can change his mind last minutes..I'm not the one who to judge his decision,my father said you can pretty much doing well anywhere if u put effort on your study..Which I lack...

OMG!!Well let's just say Akmal is very lucky this time..I just checked the result for SBP and he got accepted in one of the best SBP..I know I'm pretty late but who cares..You know what now Ridzamir going to be quite lonely unless he going to ask some help to get into any SPB or MRSM..You know last year,Ridzamir going along with Azim,Asyraf,Mujahid,Firaus(he going back to our school,I think)Kamal and lastly Akmal the one who staying..I'm listing the smart ones since Ridzamir close with smart boys..Since Akmal got accepted in SBP,he mostly will go right??Now Ridzamir going to regret for refusing SBP invitation??Since all the smart boys goes somewhere which is much better place except Azim(he moved to somewhere near Kuala Lumpur)..I think boys in 402 going be near extinction..

Last Friday,while in English period,my English teacher was needed in a hockey match..So our Chemistry teacher relieved him,she gave permission student to anything but as usual just don't be loud..While I was chatting and looking one of my friend doing Additional Mathematics,one of my close friend pointed at Ridzamir and Akmal sitting next do each other with nothing to do at the back of the class and looked quite lonely..Both of them don't go well with the new boys..

What I can say for this monthly test are consisted two word which are totally failure..Yeah I know why because I screwed most of the papers..It is such ironic because all subjects except modern mathematics mostly covered 1-3 chapters only..I'm so doomed in additional mathematics test..I pretty much messed up Biology,History and Modern Mathematics subjective section..I need to work out the additional mathematics,no time to fool around for this upcoming holidays..Something I noticed was I'm so unprepared for this test..It was not like I blamed visiting my paternal grandmother for 3 days last weekend was actually prevented me from revising..I always can study last minutes,I mean like early in the morning before the test but this time I'm not confidence able to answer the questions..I can't understand why I got my confidence when I took PMR exam when the truth was I didn't prepare much..This time my confidence nearly non-existence..

It was so fun..I enjoyed my day at school today^^..First,there a club meeting,unexpectedly the teacher decided to have a little feast..Then while biology period,my practical teacher had her lecture came over..While teaching,she asked me I couldn't utter the right word to answer my teacher question since I couldn't get my brain my brain to work..It was too sudden she asked me question..Then when she finished explaining,she held an activity..I was like enthusiastic to join it since snake and ladder game..She explained how the game work then she asked for a volunteer from each group and I was the first one to come out in front to play the game..I didn't mind really to come out in front of class as long it not involving talking in front class..In the end of the activity,my teacher give me 2 Cadbury snack bar because my courageousness to came out first..Well I'm not greedy so I'm giving 1 of the snack bar to my groupmates to share..But still,I considered I'm greedy because I'm having 1 snack bar to all myself XP..

You know what,I love this year practical teachers because they are creative since they always held nice activities to play with and giving snacks and sweets as a reward from taking part of the activity..Although I didn't mind if there no reward as long the activity is fun..I feel like a child when the teacher give the snacks and sweets lol..Seriously higher secondary students don't need any reward,it only suppose to happen in primary school haha..However,I don't mind the teacher give those thing since foods could sue my brain to understand what I don't understand =D..Really it works..

Guess what??Out of blue,my deskmate called me this evening..It been so long,I didn't hear her voice,around a month ago..She called me around 5 PM the evening,I just woke up from my nap literally..I answered my cellphone and I thought it was my close friend,Maysarah at first..I couldn't tell the difference between my deskmate's voice and my close friend voice >.<..My brain at the loss for awhile,I don't expect my brain to work fully all again when I woke up from sleep..Somehow in the haziness,I guessed it was my deskmate called since I find my close friend voice a bit more cheery and my deskmate voice is quite soft spoken..When I'm talking to her my voice was like so scratchy since I woke up from the nap and I didn't drink much water after eating lunch..I think the conversation was pretty meaningless because she the one who the did most the talking and I was like rambled on like an idiot since my brain couldn't work fully just yet..I feel like the call wasn't enough for me,I feel need to talk to her more after she ended the call..There so many things to ask but I couldn't get the questions out from my mouth..

I missed her,sound like she going to stay in MRSM..I'm trying not to be selfish,I support what the best for her..Look at the bright side,Maysarah still along with me..When and where I could find my motivation back again??Who will going to motivate me and willing to let me copy some homework (obviously I'm only copy homework from someone who have likely to have correct answers)??

Okay,I have nothing good to say for the last weekend..It went just normally..*Sigh* Next week is monthly test,so exciting..I need to prepare for it but I don't have a single clue what kind of exam format in some subjects..Great..

You know what??My little effort really worth it ahahah..I mean the duty to fill in the Biology section..

Last Friday,I didn't feel well,I felt like I would get fever and my throat felt strange like I'm going to catch cold...I think it probably because I swallowed my blood while dentist appointment or perhaps I unknowingly drank my water mixed with my blood (I didn't know my gum still bled after the day dentist appointment)..OMG I swallowed my blood it made me sick probably due it contaminated..How ironic was that??I thought it was fine swallow blood not by a large amount =/..

Anyhow,despite my health I still went to decorate my class..Stupid none of my classmates came,I felt like an idiot at that time..Now that really made me looked over-hardworking >.<..*Sigh* I'm just doing my duty to fill in the Biology section..If anyone dare to say anything ridiculous about it,I'm so going to choke them..They don't deserve to comment on it,no matter how hideous it look because they don't even help even a little..

However my fever quickly subsided in the Saturday afternoon without taking any medicine..Thankfully for that..

Finally,I bought floss because the dentist asked me to buy it..Ugh,you know how much difficulties I have to face just to use it because I never use it..I'm really bad at oral hygiene care =(..

Today,I got checked my teeth again..Well I'm expected I failed my oral hygiene since my left side of gum bleed..The dentist removed the remaining plaques..My gum is still hurting dammit..The stingy pain..The process of removing plaque way too painful compare from the first time..The machine that removed my plaque way too cruel to my gum T_T..I'm expecting my gum to be swell because of that..I'm so going to karate that machine if it's being cruel to me when I need to remove plaque again..

My close friend,Maysarah said I changed since I sit with my new deskmate..She said she miss the old me,because I'm more hardworking now..Do I changed much??I always thought I become lazier after my deskmate moved on..My friend a bit negative person,she said feel a bit cringe when she be friend with a person who more hardworking than she is..Is it wrong to be a better in certain aspect person??

Yesterday,after recess my close friend abruptly came in to our class..All the sudden my class monitor labeled her as a new student =.=..He couldn't stop teased her as a new student..

I don't know it just me or what but without my deskmate made my attitude slightly change..It is not that noticeable within a couple of days but in a week become so obvious now..

Now I don't feel like going to school early anymore..Worse I didn't like to doing my homeworks arh??Huge trouble..Now I realise my deskmate make so huge differences in my attitude..Yeah she affected me with good things and she made me motivated..She such a good role model..I'm not so sure if I make any positive impact on her,probably not since I'm a bit too much of negative person-.-..

I'm not sure if she ever enjoyed my company hm??I talk too much and she a quiet type of person..

My inner self still sad although basically I think I already get over the depressed mood..

Anyways tomorrow my close friend return to school I think??Oh yeah finally,my school hall can have be use now for whatever occasion..

Well,it started this evening,when I just awake from my nap(I tend to take a nap on the evening this week=/)..Then all sudden I heard my cellphone ringtone,I quickly opened my drawer and picked up my cellphone..I looked at the number who was calling me,it was the number that I never saw before..Then I heard similar voice said hello,I quickly recognized it as my close friend's voice,Maysarah..She said she wants to return back to our school..She told me that staying in MRSM is not fun at all..She doesn't even like the teachers over there..She was seeking my advice if she should stay longer since her teacher suggested she should stay for 1 week more but she said she couldn't continue any longer..She already asked her parents,and her parents already approved that it's okay to return back..She asked me if it's okay to return back..I said well it depends on you,I didn't mind at all..She said she's going to return home this weekend..

So yeah,my close friend can't even last in MRSM for 1 week..I thought she might staying for 1 months or so..I guess I was wrong..I think she was like went to an exchange program..I'm wondering how well my deskmate is doing O.o??I'm so happy that one of my close friend come back =D..I hope she doesn't regret her decision..Hopefully when she register back to our school she will not face any difficulties..I think there are some bright sides when I didn't get accepted to any school..

However,I quickly get over the loneliness feeling when my close friends not here..Except today,while Chemistry period,the teacher asked us to draw specified atom arrangement,I didn't know who would draw since it was my deskmate who draws all this for our group..My groupmates insisted me to draw to replace her,I ended up drew the atom arrangement and my drawing suck..I got stupid comment from my class monitor about my drawing =.=..Geez,I couldn't even draw a circle perfectly..Life carries on right??

Okay it might a bit heartbreak..But I suppose there always a reason why I'm suppose to stay..My friends probably need me..Anyways,I can get take Geography paper in SPM now and of cause I don't have to neglect Biology subject yay..I spend my holidays with my family in Terangganu..I shouldn't miss it all..I think I should manage my time efficiently from now on..It so easy,someone should kill me because I couldn't do it..

I just want to make it short..Just now my deskmate messaged me,apologized and saying goodbye...I don't want to reply back since I believe this not the last farewell..Tomorrow the beginning for my friends who will enroll into MRSM..I wish them goodluck..

I think there nothing special about it but it is still a memorable memory..I accompanied her to buy stuffs..

I spotted certain someone at The Store supermarket today..He was trying to choose shoes with his parents XD..

I'm extremely happy when she drew me a cute teddy bear picture..It indeed special..I want to cry in fact when I opened the drawing..I don't gift anything to her..So mean..Not really but I have no time to choose and buy gift for her..I'm going to miss her..I hope this is an everlasting friendship..

On the side note,while I was waiting my father to pick up I looked around Popular bookstore for awhile..When I going to turn right,the floor was slippery and so were my sandals I ended up fell on my face..Well almost,I had my elbows supporting me and so were my knees..Luckily,no one laughed when I fell-.-..It would be embarrassing moment..Then I stood up and shamelessly acted like I never fell before..

Well,8 of my friends no longer take the same pathway as the rest of my classmates and I do..There no turning back,don't regret the decision that been made..Hopefully they don't U-turn the pathway that they going to take..It is a rough journey full of adventures and the bright future will be waiting at the end of pathway if they work hard..Goodluck to them and I hope they adapt well to new environment study..It quite different from what we have now..All the best to them,hopefully they will on the same path till SPM =)..

I'll going to miss them,especially my deskmate,Nabilahanis and my close friend Maysarah..

This last day of my birthday month full of surprises..Someone might cry,somebody might scream for joy,someone might disappoint..Nevertheless,it quite overwhelm me although I'm only a seeker the results..I'm happy for them who got accepted in MRSM..I'm not so sure if they ever be going..It surprised me when 4 of my classmates get into the same MRSM..1 of my close friend feeling a bit alone because she the only girl 1 who not going to same MRSM but the MRSM quite near town..Its like a trade,my deskmate got companions but the location of MRSM is quite remote..

I feel sorry for 2 of my classmates didn't get into MRSM although they got 8As..Congratulation to certain someone because he got into one of the best MRSM ;D..My close friends said he just so lucky because he the only one of my classmate who got it..

Okay,its not like I'm sulking because of it..Just pretend I'm still 15 yay??I'm too young to be 16 hehe..Actually its not like any major different in outer appearance or personality when I hit 16..So for now I'm just 15 years old =P..

Yesterday,I'm so grateful that I get my very own cellphone..Seriously all my classmates have their own cellphone already..But then again it's not like I like need it very much or anything,I just can borrow my mum cellphone to use..Its not like I message something private..I got Nokia 5220 XpressMusic..Okay its might not Nokia N-series or something similar but its good enough for me..

Well,it supposed to be yesterday but I forgot about it..My blog officially 1 year old..I'm not so sure what so good about blogging??

My class a bit too friendly..With the constant random statements from the class monitor with the controversies..Uhh it so hilarious and yet a bit too much if u want to joke -.-..

Now to the serious problem,I'm having serious tiredness,well its no that severe but every evening I must ended up sleeping..It been going on for 2 weeks now..My mum always nagged me because I sleep too long in the evening..It's not a nap anymore like since I sleep like 2-3 hours..If I do my homework in the evening (like I ever do my homework in evening)I must have the urge to lay on my bed which like a leap away from my table that I'm doing my homework on..I lay on the bed I must auto-sleep..

My neck swelled on Saturday..Pshh additional mathematics like so easy..In sarcastic manner..Oh well,just work hard..My brain a bit slow to pick up mathematics..Need to upgrade my brain argh..You know what I'm not the person who criticize person but my class monitor who sit behind me annoys me quite a lot..

The accident happened while I'm cycling to school this morning..I don't have severe injuries luckily just a little scratch on my left knee and a bit minor injuries on my right arm due I fell on the road..No bleeding just my skin got scraped off..However my left side neck a bit strain due the hit impact that made me fell..When I'm thinking about it,I'm grateful although I'm the hit-and-run victim..My friends actually joking around after they knew about my accident,one of my friend said if she got hit even just a little scratch she actually would be run back home just to skip school..My friends so dramatic..

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I'm a bit traumatize after the hit..You know what,while at school I'm running late to go to my class after the recess after waiting my friend to buy books..One of my ex-classmate who is guy,is walking up stair so slow,I ended up shouted at him to walk up stair faster,then he said 'relax,there nothing to rush',then 1 of my friend asked to continue shouted at him,its like putting some petrol a ignited fire..I shouted louder at him again he said 'lower down your voice,people are studying' somehow I ended up chasing him along the corridor because he said I'm arrogant since I actually in a higher rank class and stay in the same class with certain someone *cough*,he ran to his class,when he entered his class I didn't bother to chase him in his class and straight away enter my class-.-..I ran quite fast,I think when I ran through classes some students actually look out why I'm running and chasing someone -.-..I realize I felt my blood boiled after I sit down..I didn't act like a girl very much when I chased him..Man,my day today in chaos or something..It didn't help much when I have to deal the trauma and him suddenly caused havoc..My sanity..

A few days ago I remember that my close friend told me that I actually threw ice cubes on the guy head while on secondary 2..I didn't remember it at all unfortunately..One of my close friend said I'm a brutal person on the outer appearance but deep in my heart I'm actually a sentimental person ARGH??WTH,where the proofs I'm a sentimental person T_T??Brutal is so not suit with me I hate the word..Sound a bit harsh on a girl since I'm girl afterall??

The black out is so like once a year thing..Unfortunately it happened while on weekday..I lacked of sleep because of that,no light no fan,so many mosquitoes hovering me..The blackout happened around 1:15 AM while I'm doing my biology homework..Yes,I'm still awake at that time..I ended didn't finish my add math homework since I can't do homework in the dark D=..When it was the time me to go to school the power still haven't back up..I have to sort my books only using a candle =/..Be grateful I still can see a bit although its in the dark..

Why I named my entry like that??It is because yesterday,while on chemistry period my teacher asked my classmates what kind of ambition u have..So when its my class monitor turn,he said pilot but somehow I misheard it,in my thought was like 'huh',after he said pilot,then I suddenly blurted out "PIRATE??" loudly..Seriously almost everyone in class turned to see me..My classmates didn't mind much my annoying behaviour??Wrong I think..Ahhaa,I think my mind suddenly flew out to my home at that time =/..Oh well,the teacher didn't say anything..

Yesterday,I finally got the textbooks after 2 days my school keep delayed it..

My younger sister got her spectacles yesterday..She only primary 2 but her eyesight same as mine when I first checked up my eyes in primary 5-.-..Her eyesight might worse than mine when she at my age,since the secondary so swapped up with homeworks and reading..Well I hopefully my sister's eyesight doesn't get worse by then..

I was so playful yesterday..I acted like a primary 1 instead of secondary 4!!

While weekly assembly,I sneezed so loud and it was right after the principal finished his speech then damn all people around me keep looking at me for awhile..It so funny when I looked at their faces expressions aahahah..Gawd,I have problem with my head or not??It was quite embarrassing but erm for me it not so much ahaha..

Digging your own well << My English Teacher

Digging your own grave << Me(Reading too much fan fictions XD)

This is the worst time ever..I never so affected by it until now..I get irritated easily..

It is so bored while recess,I have no where to go..My school haven't started to sort out the secondary 4 students just yet..Oh yeah,my school already have new principal and senior assistant..I already started learning new subjects due the fact somebody from the Education District came to check up my school..Apparently the usage in english in class will be a lot since 7 subjects in English..OMG..

Happy back to school..To tell u the truth I don't feel anything..It's like I'm emotionless..I think my feeling been broke down due the PMR result..Can I be myself as usual??I don't want go to school just yet..My brain is dead at the moment,how the heck I'm going to learn anything if my brain like this??I don't want any homework for tomorrow..

Well I missed the countdown of the new year due the fact I slept early yesterday and ended up waking up early..I don't care much about the countdown thought..

Yesterday my brother's car arrived..Now our house have 3 cars,well its only temporary soon my father will send it to Johor..My sister passed the driving test too..So congratulation to her..She so happy about it..

I don't know what this year resolution,my resolutions all died in the beginning of the year..I'm still sulking about my result ahaha..Just joking,the result don't affect me much..Life still goes on..Soon I will be secondary 4,argh..

Life Goes ON~Rain =P