The Path I Walked On

Last Friday,I didn't feel well,I felt like I would get fever and my throat felt strange like I'm going to catch cold...I think it probably because I swallowed my blood while dentist appointment or perhaps I unknowingly drank my water mixed with my blood (I didn't know my gum still bled after the day dentist appointment)..OMG I swallowed my blood it made me sick probably due it contaminated..How ironic was that??I thought it was fine swallow blood not by a large amount =/..

Anyhow,despite my health I still went to decorate my class..Stupid none of my classmates came,I felt like an idiot at that time..Now that really made me looked over-hardworking >.<..*Sigh* I'm just doing my duty to fill in the Biology section..If anyone dare to say anything ridiculous about it,I'm so going to choke them..They don't deserve to comment on it,no matter how hideous it look because they don't even help even a little..

However my fever quickly subsided in the Saturday afternoon without taking any medicine..Thankfully for that..

Finally,I bought floss because the dentist asked me to buy it..Ugh,you know how much difficulties I have to face just to use it because I never use it..I'm really bad at oral hygiene care =(..

Today,I got checked my teeth again..Well I'm expected I failed my oral hygiene since my left side of gum bleed..The dentist removed the remaining plaques..My gum is still hurting dammit..The stingy pain..The process of removing plaque way too painful compare from the first time..The machine that removed my plaque way too cruel to my gum T_T..I'm expecting my gum to be swell because of that..I'm so going to karate that machine if it's being cruel to me when I need to remove plaque again..

My close friend,Maysarah said I changed since I sit with my new deskmate..She said she miss the old me,because I'm more hardworking now..Do I changed much??I always thought I become lazier after my deskmate moved on..My friend a bit negative person,she said feel a bit cringe when she be friend with a person who more hardworking than she is..Is it wrong to be a better in certain aspect person??

Yesterday,after recess my close friend abruptly came in to our class..All the sudden my class monitor labeled her as a new student =.=..He couldn't stop teased her as a new student..

I don't know it just me or what but without my deskmate made my attitude slightly change..It is not that noticeable within a couple of days but in a week become so obvious now..

Now I don't feel like going to school early anymore..Worse I didn't like to doing my homeworks arh??Huge trouble..Now I realise my deskmate make so huge differences in my attitude..Yeah she affected me with good things and she made me motivated..She such a good role model..I'm not so sure if I make any positive impact on her,probably not since I'm a bit too much of negative person-.-..

I'm not sure if she ever enjoyed my company hm??I talk too much and she a quiet type of person..

My inner self still sad although basically I think I already get over the depressed mood..

Anyways tomorrow my close friend return to school I think??Oh yeah finally,my school hall can have be use now for whatever occasion..

Well,it started this evening,when I just awake from my nap(I tend to take a nap on the evening this week=/)..Then all sudden I heard my cellphone ringtone,I quickly opened my drawer and picked up my cellphone..I looked at the number who was calling me,it was the number that I never saw before..Then I heard similar voice said hello,I quickly recognized it as my close friend's voice,Maysarah..She said she wants to return back to our school..She told me that staying in MRSM is not fun at all..She doesn't even like the teachers over there..She was seeking my advice if she should stay longer since her teacher suggested she should stay for 1 week more but she said she couldn't continue any longer..She already asked her parents,and her parents already approved that it's okay to return back..She asked me if it's okay to return back..I said well it depends on you,I didn't mind at all..She said she's going to return home this weekend..

So yeah,my close friend can't even last in MRSM for 1 week..I thought she might staying for 1 months or so..I guess I was wrong..I think she was like went to an exchange program..I'm wondering how well my deskmate is doing O.o??I'm so happy that one of my close friend come back =D..I hope she doesn't regret her decision..Hopefully when she register back to our school she will not face any difficulties..I think there are some bright sides when I didn't get accepted to any school..

However,I quickly get over the loneliness feeling when my close friends not here..Except today,while Chemistry period,the teacher asked us to draw specified atom arrangement,I didn't know who would draw since it was my deskmate who draws all this for our group..My groupmates insisted me to draw to replace her,I ended up drew the atom arrangement and my drawing suck..I got stupid comment from my class monitor about my drawing =.=..Geez,I couldn't even draw a circle perfectly..Life carries on right??

Okay it might a bit heartbreak..But I suppose there always a reason why I'm suppose to stay..My friends probably need me..Anyways,I can get take Geography paper in SPM now and of cause I don't have to neglect Biology subject yay..I spend my holidays with my family in Terangganu..I shouldn't miss it all..I think I should manage my time efficiently from now on..It so easy,someone should kill me because I couldn't do it..

I just want to make it short..Just now my deskmate messaged me,apologized and saying goodbye...I don't want to reply back since I believe this not the last farewell..Tomorrow the beginning for my friends who will enroll into MRSM..I wish them goodluck..

I think there nothing special about it but it is still a memorable memory..I accompanied her to buy stuffs..

I spotted certain someone at The Store supermarket today..He was trying to choose shoes with his parents XD..

I'm extremely happy when she drew me a cute teddy bear picture..It indeed special..I want to cry in fact when I opened the drawing..I don't gift anything to her..So mean..Not really but I have no time to choose and buy gift for her..I'm going to miss her..I hope this is an everlasting friendship..

On the side note,while I was waiting my father to pick up I looked around Popular bookstore for awhile..When I going to turn right,the floor was slippery and so were my sandals I ended up fell on my face..Well almost,I had my elbows supporting me and so were my knees..Luckily,no one laughed when I fell-.-..It would be embarrassing moment..Then I stood up and shamelessly acted like I never fell before..

Well,8 of my friends no longer take the same pathway as the rest of my classmates and I do..There no turning back,don't regret the decision that been made..Hopefully they don't U-turn the pathway that they going to take..It is a rough journey full of adventures and the bright future will be waiting at the end of pathway if they work hard..Goodluck to them and I hope they adapt well to new environment study..It quite different from what we have now..All the best to them,hopefully they will on the same path till SPM =)..

I'll going to miss them,especially my deskmate,Nabilahanis and my close friend Maysarah..