The Path I Walked On

This year full of struggle and hardship and lastly freedom..

It was something new..I really like it ahha..But I ended up bruised on my left knee and blister on my right thigh.

I supposed to write it about a week ago,but my SPM examination isn't officially over..So I decided to write it after I took my elective subject..

A week ago, I bet my classmates were really excited when their already finish the SPM..I shared their joy as well, but I felt nothing..Not even tinge of excitement that the major exam was over..Maybe I thought the war is not over yet but I was wrong..Yesterday,I felt the same feeling as last week..It like something hollow,something missing in the picture..

For your information,even first day I felt the dreading feeling..Nevertheless,the last day, felt like I'm emotionless..I like to feel some kind of emotion rather than none at all..

Last Friday I came to school to feel the moment of the last day of school 2010 before SPM examination..Not many of my classmates came to school neither the male students of my class *cough* extinct *cough*..I must said it was quite boring,my friends and I tried to study for awhile before recess..After recess,we chatted then we saw other class started to take photographs..My friends stared at their acts and poses..After awhile,my other classmate asked our class to take pictures outside the examination hall..My friends took numerous photos and we made various style of poses..Well I don't like to pose much..I always look awkward in photo if I pose..I look much better in candid photos though..

After tired posing,we decided to sit behind the hall and talking idly..Actually even it was the time to go home,we still sitting and chatting until we heard a teacher asking himself out loud "Where all students go??There are some belongings left,"..Immediately after that we ran to the hall and picked up our belonging because the teacher was going to lock the hall door..Haha it was so funny..I bet many students actually eager to go home early but not for us =P..

I didn't bring my digital camera along sadly =(..

Last week on Friday,a teacher asked us to tear all the information on the board in our classroom to get ready the SPM examination..So we tear all the papers and the classroom looked really bare..Maybe because of there no teacher around,we decided to write our signatures on the board at the back of class room with permanent marker pens..However,not all the students really dare to write something on the board cause it a vandalism act *cough*..Really who want to get into trouble =/?? Afterward we scribbled around,my friend said that we looked like already finish our final exam..Too relaxing..

So yesterday was the last day before we left our 502 aka 5UIA2 before we went to main hall to arrange our desk for SPM examination and stay there for the rest of the week..I barely stayed in the class on that day..

Today,not many of my classmates going to school,they already decided to take holiday earlier..I came to school because of Physics and Biology subject..

How I'm going to say this..Urm geez lately my bicycle kept giving me a lot of trouble..All because the chain keep getting lose..It is something fixable until last Friday..

It happened on my way to school..I don't like the idea getting my fingers dirty so I walked till school..After the school session over,I decided its the best just walk to my house instead of messing around with the chain..However,out of the blue a guy asked me if I needed some help..He got a screw driver too to make the fixing work easier..I said quick thanks after he fixed the chain..I hate those curious looks of other people notably *cough* boys *cough* when he helped me =/..

My sister's convocation 10 October 2010 was such a perfect date..Sadly I did not typed any post on that date..I was so exhausted from the journey..

Although it didn't went well on Saturday but at least my family able to attend the convocation..My sister received a bouquet of flowers which had one sunflower on the middle..My mother said it was pretty bland and pale..Not to mention,it was really expensive RM40 for bouquet of real flowers..It did not smell nice either,might as well buy plastic ones because at least you can keep it forever..

My parents did not enter the convocation hall but instead my brother and his fiancée..

Last Thursday,I dressed a little different than usual when I came to Chemistry extra class..However,it caught quite some attention from my classmates especially girls..I couldn't suppress my grin when my classmates complimented me that I looked good and cute..Other than that,some had unbelievable looks when they saw me..They even whispered to each other "Who's that?"..I almost chuckled at the sentence because did I looked like an alien,a stranger or something??A classmate came close to me to see closer my appearance..In my heart I said "Urm did I looked so different??"

Today during Civic subject,my classmate playfully taped a black and purple ribbons on my head..Well,let just say my classmates were like staring weirdly at me and accused the girl for bullying me..

It been months I typed a post in my blog..Well it just time is quite unforgiving now..So much things to say but mostly I forgotten..

Anyways,on August my class got involved into trouble..It was just my friend sort off fought prefect at first..Then it turned the prefect reported to student affair teacher that we said "Prefects are stupid"..Wow what a mislead..

Then the student affair teacher came to our class threaten to write in the school certificate our attitude 'Average'..Well a few days after that,he came again cursed us we going to fail our SPM exam..Not within 1 hour,he came back he said he took back the curse..Is he bipolar or something??

Then the case had to be investigate by our school principal..It was surely high class case >.>..

During SPM trial exam,I got flu all because my younger brother sneezed in front of me without covering his nose..Ugh..

Last week,I accidentally banged my head quite hard on the bed post..Luckily I didn't forget anything,at least I think so..It didn't bruise much..

Oh yeah 2 weeks ago,my school set a new rule that every student must arrive school before 7.20 AM because teachers think the students who coming late trying to skip roll-call..It was *cough* true *cough* because *cough* wasting time standing..

Puhaha,seriously after 2 days absent from school again heh..

I was late to school..Ack..

Then,after awhile I back to the assembly..Urm I made a grand entrance..Sure it was,some students mostly girls were looking at me..Oh the irony,why I have to create a lot of attention to myself..I was kind of embarrassed but I think I managed it quite well =X..

I'm not sure I mean it in a good way or bad way..I think it's both..I went to Canteen Day with my younger sister around 8.30am..

I think it was quite bad in terms of place and the food varieties..I like last year more..Nevertheless,this year had more events to watch..

For the opening ceremony,there were silat and lion dance performance..Then there was rocket launch competition..

What an extraordinary way to end the old month and to welcome a new month..Tsk..

You know what a small deal could turned into larger one..Way to go..

Actually on Tuesday I fell sick..At the moment,I feel sick again..The next day,Wednesday I absent from school for the first time in 2010..

Oh yeah,on Friday I was like quite late..Around 8am I arrived at school..The truth was I didn't want go to school but my parents forced me =(..

Very immature of me..Even secondary 3 wasn't that bad..This is like 2x worser *cough*..I think I grew to be very immature person instead of maturer..

Anyways,after all that's happened I become quite avoidance when I meet my peers..They are curious to know why..I am like "OMG,leave me alone..I'm too shy to reveal all"..Well the thing is it is already a history..Just forget about it..

Unintentionally,I receive quite some of attention from other people..I made a record too..Sure my teachers and some of my friends would never forget about it heh..

After this,perhaps most of my friends will look at me in different perspective..I think I will act differently..Just maybe..I need a physiologist..

Ugh my exam result is like the greatest thing ever..Actually is pretty average..Urm..I barely work an ounce for that exam..Hahah that sure pretty messed up..

Two week of holidays,I barely did nothing..Apart from attending transformation classes on the first week,I did nothing..On the second week,my family went to Terengganu for 3 days vacation..I didn't come along because I had to attend class..*Cough* I attended 1 day out of 3 days *Cough*..

I was kinda busy with exam and doing Addition Mathematics work project..

My elder brother finally got engaged last Saturday..On the morning before I returned home,I went for hill climbing at Gunung Lambak,Johor..It was fun and definitely something new..At the beginning I was walking with my younger brother but my brother decided to turn around at the middle of the climbing..I insisted to climb up till top,for the rest of the journey I was walking alone..There were a lot of people using that track so not to worry much..I thought the track wasn't hard,so I went jungle trekking wearing strapped sandals =.=ll..Luckily no leech around..I took around 1 hour to complete whole course and I didn't even eat breakfast before that XD..

Amazingly after treacherous walking I didn't end up sleeping..It was exhaustive journey but I didn't feel like it..In fact I was wide awake,it was like the adrenaline rushing through my vein..I slept 6 hour later not because of tiredness but due boredom of long journey back home..

Well, I was hiatus from typing blog because my pc stopped working,all sudden like 1 month ago..I was fine at the beginning living without internet but 1 week ago I on verge of frustration because I can't seem to get the information I want to know without internet..Luckily,my sister just back from her practicum so I use her laptop to surf internet..I prefer my pc more but it seem it won't get fix any time soon..

My family celebrated Mother's Day for the first time I recalled by eating outside..Actually it was the first time my family dine in Pizza Hut Restaurant at Taiping..My family always take out Pizza..

Sadly last Monday my paternal grandmother passed away due to heart complication..I was not able to attend her funeral because I having my middle year examination..She was around eighty something when she died..

I really enjoyed watching teachers participated in event held..It so funny because 1 of the teacher tried to cheat haha..I like the event where the teacher have to roll the coconut to the bottles like bowling..It was harder than bowling since the coconut did not roll straight..

I have to say it was quite disappointing a part from the demonstration during the morning assembly and the briefing about meteorology..I didn't really excited for the exhibition anyways..There weren't much to see..I think science and mathematics school fair 4 years ago much more exciting..Oh I wish there will be another science and mathematics fair because it's definitely show how amazing science and mathematics are..I more leaned towards experiments and demonstration to show how magical the science is..

During the morning assembly,one of the representative from Pusat Sains Negara and his assistant showed a cool demonstration,something that I wasn't aware off..Like the ordinary flame can change colour if certain element or compound is scattered toward the flame..Lithium chloride can turn the flame to red,calcium chloride can turn the more orange and the most spectacular is when copper can turn the flame to green..

The briefing about meteorology career really open my eyes and perked up my curiosity..Although I think he just promoted his career pathway but he said something that is quite true..Meteorology about saving people lifes since we really depends on weather..If no prediction about upcoming the thunderstorm on the way of a aeroplane,the people in the plane might in danger..

I always thought before this,shaving is painful and somewhat lot of risks like getting cut,ingrown hairs..Until 2 days ago,I was looking for a black pen that I could use and I found an unused razor that belongs to my elder sister..I was eager to try it..I shaved but instead of fearing I got cut at the place where I shave,I got slight cut on both my index fingers instead haha..My fingers were curious to touch the blade..I got cut and it was slightly bleed..

Well after so long I used the money notes,I never realise the function of the dots or symbol at the left side of money note..I only knew when I learned while watching a video during Biology lesson yesterday..Actually it is for blind people..The dots was slightly embossed so that blind people can identify using sense of touch how much the money note worth..I tried to touch the dots but I couldn't identify the note much..My sense of touch quite insensitive =X..

Today,I tasted icing cupcakes..Not to forget,I attended the geography class for the first time in this year..I received my Geography test paper,the mark wasn't that bad since I don't read Geography Form 5 syllabus at all..I heavily depended on the memory I read and learned during lower secondary Geography..Who knows it helped a lot..

It was the first time I participated after fifth year in secondary school..I participated because it held around the area of my school instead of the usual the Taiping Lake Garden area..It was unbelievably tiring and sweating profusely,I admitted..Most of time I was like fast walking not running..I'm don't have the stamina needed XP..The scenery wasn't the best unlike the Taiping Lake Garden..I had to go through beside different rubbish dumpsters like more than four times =.=ll..A job well done who got to receive medals..My time was roughly about 1 hour and a quarter for distance 5 kilometer..It was slightly shorter distance compared to previous one which 6 kilometer...My body is kinda sore now..

3 days ago,I slightly sprained my right ankle again after I woke up my evening nap..It wasn't that bad I still managed to walk properly like I never had a sprain before..However the I experienced excruciating pain that lasted quite long compared to previous ones..I had to sleep back just to forget the pain >.>..

This sickness so far the draggiest and also the first time I sick this year..It is just a flu but I still haven't cure from it..It started to show symptom on Sunday,I was having sore throat until Monday..Usually I only had sore throat for 1 day..On the Monday's night I slept very early because I was very uncomfortable..I thought the sore throat will gone next morning..But how wrong I was,it still hadn't gone completely..Then on Tuesday,I feel much better and I thought I didn't caught flu..However,on Tuesday was the beginning of the monthly test day..My position during the test was directly under fan..I admitted I sneezed quite a few times on that day because it was quite cold..Next morning I caught flu and I felt I'm going to get fever..Today,I'm feeling hotter than usual..

Today is day the SPM 2009 results out..I'm cant imagine next year will be my turn..Frankly,many students got good results were who from the below classes rather upper classes..

Well lets just say at first look the parade like a fashion show somehow..Mainly the students wore their best traditional clothes..However,my beloved sport house is the winner of the annually sport even..Yeah^^..So proud of the participants..

Yeah almost a month I didn't really want to type anything because I didn't feel like to..However,my cat Si Sukun recently just gave birth today for third times..

I didn't even bother to comment about my English Language Oral test which on last Monday..Nevertheless,Ridzamir quite good at making the forum situation less serious haha..

I have a good laugh about his imaginary son and he praised his younger brother for being a good tuition teacher XD..

During secondary 2 and before that I never experience sprained my ankle before..But after the first time on secondary 3,I keep sprained my ankle annually..So far its already 3 times in a row -.-..This is very ironic...

I sprained my right ankle while I was walking to class in the morning after assembly..Sigh it was not like I was walking super fast..Somehow I fell and sprained my ankle..Luckily my schoolmate who is my next to my class and my primary classmate came to help me..It sucked I sprained in the morning..My ankle swell quite quickly..I have difficulties to climb up and climb down the stair..However my ankle isn't sprain very bad,its just swell a lot =.=..

An international exchange student from German currently study in my school for roughly a year from 2 February 2010(which is today) till 30 January 2011..I knew about it since last week official assembly from my senior school assistant..The student is a girl,who's name Veronica..I didn't quite catch her last name..Really is it not worth to hype about since the student is studying in secondary 4 which is have nothing to do with my class at all..Although,I'm pretty proud my school became the chosen one for the exchange student..She came my school yesterday for register while we having assembly..Some students tried to extend their necks to catch the glimpse of her..I didn't have the chance to see her yesterday,my classmate told me she looked pretty matured for her age and taller than most of the students (Not that I surprise mostly Caucasian look older than their actual age)..

Actually when she came to school today wearing school uniform,I saw her up close..Well she not that tall as I thought but she indeed looks older..It so funny when some of my male classmates started to dream the unlikely things..Seriously some of my male classmates thought she like a winner of beauty pageant or something similar like that..Whatever float on their boat I guess..Based on my perspective view,she considers as a bit above average pretty,nothing drop dead gorgeous but she has flawless face and pale skin (Geez it mostly due to her home country climate and some parts of the genetic)..

That's enough about her..

Yesterday evening,I went to Popular to buy some pens and a Geography reference book..Apparently,I'm taking too much time choosing which pen to buy..After I paid for the items,I made a run to go to my mum car..Maybe the machine quite suspicious why I ran,the machine to detect shoplifter started to beeping when I ran passed through it..I halted my running when I heard the sound then I looked behind me..The customers lining up to pay and the cashier actually were looking strangely at me and the machine..Fortunately,the alarm didn't last long,so I just ran back to my mum car..Perhaps it wasn't a good idea to run after all haha..

My right side molar tooth now kinda bit in pain..I'm not sure it is a toothache since the pain pretty much ignorable..The pain similar to when u going to lose your tooth??OMG all my teeth are permanent I'm not going to lose one am I D=??

After school session,everyday I have extra classes to attend..However with the sport practice held in the evening,some of extra classes are further delayed until the school sport day is over..I really don't know when I'm going start to learn geography with my school teacher..The option to drop out geography subject is the last thing in my mind..

I already informed about the date of SPM 2010 examination..It is slightly later than last year..The SPM 2010 examination will start on 22 November 2010 and will end on 16 December 2010..By the way,the trial of SPM will be held 1 month ahead than last year as my teacher told me..

Today is my birthday ^^..The first person who sent her birthday wish to me through message is my close friend,Maysarah..The moment after I woke up from my sleep,I checked my cellphone because I was charging my cellphone battery while I'm sleeping..Then I saw her message sent to me and I read it..Thanks a lot to May although she sent it 30 minutes before midnight but I read it on 27 January on around 3 o'clock in the morning..

Today,I was able to make something using plaster of Paris during Art and Photography club session XD..It was pretty fun to feel and played it for the first time..One of my classmate,had the plaster all over the her hands and decided to use the excess plaster to make a heart shape as a souvenir..It was really nice looking shape..I made one as well but in different shape but it didn't go well because it didn't dry much..During the club session,my classmate was looking at her calendar to check the date,she noticed my birthday is today and my other classmate,Syafika wished me 'Happy Birthday'..After poured the plaster in the molds,my classmates and I washed the bucket and washed our hands,one of my friend,Mira met me while she going to her class and said 'Happy Birthday ^^..

After the club session,I entered the class and my close friend,Diyana wished me a 'Happy Birthday' also..Then May asked if she the first one to wish me 'Happy Birthday' and I said yes,she's happy with that I think XD..After that,my current deskmate also told me 'Happy Birthday' and I unnoticed she put a present on my desk..Afterward, several of my classmates said 'Happy Birthday'..

While recess time there not much time left,I busy eating in my class..One of my male classmate which is a prefect and mostly my classmate some sort don't like him,like trying to mimic 'my school most hated senior assistant' said within this week, to me..My reply was a loud 'Uwekk',it meaning I don't give a damn about it..After heard my reply,he went off to chemistry lab..Then all sudden some of females classmates cheered about the scenario happened a moment ago..I was like 'WTH?'..Next my classmate,Jazzmine came up to me and hi-5..Hhaha funny really..

I didn't learn much today since mostly the lessons after recess we spent on nuclear power speech..It was quite boring,I managed to dozed off for while since I was sleepy due to I woke up very early in the morning..

Yesterday,my close friend,May noted my voice slightly different than usual while I talking to my other classmate..She teased me for being matured (It is very unlikely I change within overnight) =.=..Although my classmate said there nothing different in my voice..Perhaps I didn't talk much with my close friends since I'm pretty busy to hang around..

Yeah,2 years ago was the date I created this blog..Well 2 years sound quite long doesn't it??

So many things happened for the past 2 days..

On Monday,I entered the class after my classmates painted the wall on Saturday..I was like 'Gee,am I in the right room??' because it was totally different feeling..The classroom wall used to be green before purple colour..It was quite distracting at first..

During chemistry experiment about the effect of total surface area of reactant on rate of reaction,my groupmate was shaking the conical flask filled with hydrochloric acid and marble chips..She shook a bit too roughly the flask,the delivery tube out from the mouth of burette..The rest of my groupmates actually too busy focus on the reading on the burette to notice that..When all sudden the reading stayed the same,my groupmates like 'What happened??The reaction not complete yet..'..Then we noticed that..We all laughed..Almost all other group members started to look towards our group because we laughed quite loudly..My group need to redo the experiment again because didn't finish took readings..In the end,my group the last one to finish >.>..

Yesterday's afternoon,I broke a plate while washing dishes..It was not the plate that I slipped that broke but instead a dish that the dish fell on inside the sink broke..Well the dish the broke at the edge with 3 large pieces..

Today,I was late like for real..Uhh at least I got excused since it was my first time...There always first time in everything right??It doesn't make any better either since I was already late on the first month of school =.=..

It supposed on Wednesday but my teacher in a bit late so we had our presentation on Thursdays instead..However,extra one day doesn't make any differences in presentation..It's not like I'm trying hard to make it perfect =.=..

Literally at first I thought the same thing too because I couldn't find it in my pocket..I didn't bother to look around the car because I didn't remember I picked up my cellphone on the table..Never crossed my mind that my cellphone slipped out from my pocket..My mum called my cellphone but no avail because my cellphone ran out of battery (I quite lazy to charge it >.>)..Somehow,my sister saw my cellphone on the car seat behind my back..It felt like I'm dreaming when I saw my phone..

I quite upset when I thought I left my cellphone..Then again my cellphone not that important..I only used it regularly for listening music while doing my homework and sometimes alarm clock when I need to wake up quite early to finish my homework..Maybe once awhile to contact my friends..However,my life definitely is not over if I leave my cellphone somewhere..In fact,computer with internet is far more crucial than the cellphone for me..

Well it was okay except I have a lot homework to be done X.x..

It was like nothing extraordinary except during the assembly while singing national anthem, a girl who was standing beside me collapsed..I was freaked out,seriously didn't know what to do..Luckily there were girls knew what to do with the help of a male teacher.

Apparently my last year secondary 4 class teacher is also my secondary 5 class teacher this year..Not forget to mention,now the school slightly changed the name of classes based on local university names..For example 501 now become 5UIA..My class 502 is 5UKM as my Biology teacher told me..The name is considered fine..I like if they name 5USM more,sound more cooler and more suitable as science stream class XD..

When I looked up at the class schedule,the time blocks is arranged differently compared to last year..Now each time block contained 35 minutes of lesson if after recess time..Usually important subjects like Biology,Physics,Chemistry,Additional Mathematics and Mathematics take up 2 time blocks..Which means the lesson contained 1 hour 10 minutes..Heck that is a long period of time to learn one subject..My school session ends on 1.25PM..It was 5 minutes earlier than last year which on 1.30PM..I really don't know when I'm going back home if there is extra class needed to be attend..

For the subject teachers,the teachers are same as last year except for English,Mathematics,History and Civic..